Poetry: Une Dune

Dunes. Sand. Dust in the mites of earth
into dunes.

Seashells. Old. Fossilised wealth
of history.
the menstruating
your lips.

Widening Earth.
An imagined curse.
to peruse through the use of a
deep dark vile verse
of old deep dark words
of old hands that
through throngs
and tongues


Merry Christmas- Poem

Merry Christmas to you,
All you judgers and gossipers,
All you tormentors with flaming tongues,
All you bloodsuckers with leeching lips,
All your tentacles with vice like grips.

Merry Christmas to you!
Merry Christmas indeed!

Merry Christmas to you,
All the sweet childlike mongers,
All the fresh scented thieves,
All the erratic murderers,
All the cool minty pagans,
All the dashing argumentators,
Merry Christmas you fruity baskets,
With cherries on top.

Merry Christmas,
you leper helpers
Merry Christmas to you.

Christ-Convicted to Argue?

Of the many arguments within the Christian community, a majority, I believe, might stem from the simple belief that “I should do as Christ convicts and tells me”. The problem is… we cannot argue that when Christ convicts one man, it is the same conviction applicable to another man. We always have the supposition that every Christian should have the same conviction because we have the same bible– but denominations and theoretical arguments among bible scholars shows that the Bible is open to interpretation because the Bible (to some extent) is ambiguous and mainly so due to the different context that we and the people of the Bible live in.

Unfortunately, when a Christian “gains” a conviction, he is “enlightened” and is in awe with God – leading to a strong sense that no one can take that enlightenment from him. And so, the Christian protects it, is defensive or is ignorant to arguments to his firm belief/ sudden enlightenment– and even more so if the enlightenment appears after a spate of challenges, sufferings and obstacles he may have face or if the conviction stems from a miracle or a “personal encounter with a heavenly being”. And the situation does not get better as we are bombarded with examples of matyrs and Biblical heroes who are celebrated for the persecution of their faith and belief among the majority of the disbelieving, viewing such steadfastness as a exemplary form of love towards God.

However, if every Christian is supposedly firm in their belief and convictions, and they are protective of it (and rightly so, as it is the driving force to growth/comfort/faith), the contradiction lies when they meet someone else with as strong a conviction but a markedly different belief altogether.

You can say goodbye to “do not judge your neighbour” as then, if we are truly convicted of something, we cannot help but feel “disturbed” when another does something that opposes or does not follow our convictions. In fact, we can go as far as to assert and push our convictions as the correct way under the righteous guise that “iron sharpens iron” and we shall not have our brothers’ blood on our hands by “saving” them from falling (cue Daisy Chains story by Amy Carmichael). How are we not able to “judge” when someone else is doing something so markedly wrong based on our/ or our particular community’s own set of convictions?

And the cruel truth in the Christian Evangelical Faith is that an Absolute truth is the foremost foundation of our belief– that Christ died for us and is the only way of salvation (and even this belief faces opposition and if a reason should contradict this truth then please walk yourself to the “False Teaching” and “Satan, go behind me” corner).

But Absolutes are just a field of landmines filled with weapons. You either go around, treading oh-so-carefully, trying to avoid conflict and confrontation. Or grab a weapon of “Faith”, wielding the shield of “Righteous Indignation” swinging arguments against any Tom, Dick or Harr. Or walk around, minding your own business, and suddenly someone blows up a mine and you’re amidst chaos, fighting, and destruction.

We either become cowards, “soldiers” or extremists. And everyone else is somewhere in between.

A short fairytale

There was once a fair maiden
whose eyes sparkled like snow
in the bright wintery morning.

Should she held her hand
up into the air
the world would bless her with all the stars in the universe.

Her wishes
no matter how small
were granted by the sun and moon.

Her tears that never fall
would have glistened like pearls
before swine
finding no meaning in their existence.

There was once a fair maiden
who could choose
to remain ignorant
and be free.

but then
she chose me.


I am loitering in the Friendzone.

The odd thing is…
I don’t belong there.

I loiter and loiter in a priviledged space,
a stranger, a noble in this desert scape.

I am loitering in the Friendzone.


I have no pretty words
I have no game
I act as if
all guys are the same
but my heart pitter patters unreadably
in a place that is most epitomisingly
of doom
what can i do?

I loiter terribly.


I loiter in the Friendzone as if my heart is dead.
But the reality is the Friendzone is my prison escape.

Oceans (Hillsong) Piano Variations

I made a three- part series to how songs are usually played in churches I’ve been to.

Part 1 is the typical Piano Cover with right hand playing melody

Part 2 is the typical way I play piano when accompanying the congregation (this might change based on worship leader and band)

Part 3 is a sample of how piano accompaniment sounds like with vocals.

Thought this 3 part series gives a good overview of how one can change their playing in church.

Let me know if you’re interested in tutorials on playing by ear, chord variation, song variation etc. I’m not the best person but if you feel you would at least like to reach my level, just drop comments on what you’re interested in ^^

Approximately crazy

It is an approximate.

Just an approximate.

An approximate is a worm. Embellished. Gold. Emerald. Worn.

An approximate.

A fairytale. A delusion. A cheekylittlepainfulwayofsaying

To posit.

If I am to be an approximate.  A number. A figure. Will it be enough if I were to just live then die?

Shall I cease being an estimate.

Shall I then be. Human?

Or do I remain.

An approximate.

It is. An approximate. 

Abysmal youth

Abysmally a woman, an old woman, shook,
A tree, a garden,
An aged warrior, a lion,
A sheep, a shepherd,
A young girl, an angel,
all faces, erases,
Just lies in her creases,
Abysmally that woman, an old woman, shook.

I’m a young girl,
I have pretty hair,
And all that

I’m a wholesome girl,
A peaking of a soul,
A wisening of the

I am once a girl,
At once a child,

I am
I am
I am or was once

Itsy bitsy spider
when up the water


The Great Reverse (Luke 2:1-20)

(I’m gonna try this new thing. For every sermon I go to, I’m going to briefly summarise them into an entry for the blog and they’ll be like little nuggets and pockets of sermons. Although, the musings here are filtered through my head and carries a lot of my thoughts and opinions.)

1) The Gospel Reverses Our Expectations About Salvation
When one thinks about salvation, we are drawn to ideas of being saved from our present predicament. Be it from anxiety in our work, pressure from our friends and family, unmet expectations in our academics or in our life’s goals.

We are people who are never fulfilled, and when we achieve happiness or taste pleasure, it is fleeting; a moment that exists in a moment. A simple moment in the past that we try to document as clearly as we can but can never fully recreate.

Indeed, in the same way, the Jews are very much like us. In a time of affliction and persecution of their freedom by foreign powers, Christ the Saviour was meant to be the person who saves us practically. Saving us from our immediate affliction.

I believe it’s hard for them and for us to live our life the way Christ does. Now Christ sees our life in totality and he knows of a greater predicament and of a greater affliction and that is separation from God. Surely we must learn to see in this perspective for us to fully understand salvation and our current pain and situations and perhaps our lives’ goal is to always constantly see our lives as always imperfect and always in greater pain when we are apart from God.

2) The Gospel Reverses Our Expectations About who Receives the Message of Salvation.
The Jews were also people who had distinctions on who is deserving of God’s blessing. There were evident judgement against one another in the same society.

Yet Christ came and he accepted all: especially the ones who were shunned in society. The point is: salvation is for all. And it must remain so.

I could talk a little bit more about our ideas of salvation, about my criticisms of street evangelism and the culture of churches but I will refrain.

All in all, this message seeks to emphasise that the gospel is actually a great reversal of our notions of salvation. Hence, our views of the gospel should be a continuous reevaluation of our commitment to God in that first promise and prayer for salvation.